You know, there are days when a piece of dark chocolate is all you need to recharge. Then there are days when you may need a scoop of really yummy chocolate chip cookie dough. And then there are days when you must have nothing short of a ton of chocolate and icecream. Each.
Today, I felt like nothing could help.
Haven't sunk this deep for a while. Last I recall was about 2004 or 2005? And yes, it's always related to work. Nothing too specific; just..work! *you have to imagine me spitting the word out like a poison*
This time, I diagnose myself with professional depression. Nothing clinical about this one.
For some time now, I have this card stuck to my CPU in the office. It reads "I don't hate my life". I think "don't" is underlined.
I have been playing a lot of puzzle games on my Pinky II to keep myself from dwelling on negative thoughts about work, about my working life. But it hit me that I was escaping. I should not escape! I must do something about it.
So, because of this negative energy in me, I don't feel too cute these days. In fact, I was rather afraid that something fundamental had changed in me. I mean, I always encourage people to be positive right?
I must remember that I sometimes need to encourage myself too :)
Must find time to go play sackboy... Be happy, mf!