Friday, 11 June 2010

Dreamily, mf lives

I'm listening to a fun song now - and feeling happy!

I guess I'm luckier than most, in that I become happy easily.

Sure, the toils and turmoils of work and life get to me sometimes, some people have a greater effect on me than others, and there are bad hair or whatever days. But I just need a little something, say a comforting gesture or a lazy afternoon, to get me going again. In this case, it's my medical leave and happy songs! Let's skip the medical leave next time, pls.....

I wonder if I have always been like this. From the bits and pieces I remember of my early childhood and from old photos, I was one happy little girl, who didn't even cry when left alone in kindergarten.

From there, I remember everything by school years - :) in primary school, =( in secondary school, :)) in JC, =)) in university - largely because there was a lot of unhappiness outside of school, terrible days when I had to endure all the quarreling and the screaming too... That kind of puts a lot of things into perspective.

But while I say that my schools, especially JC and university, have moulded the mf today, I cannot ignore the fact that my family may have an even greater effect on me - it made me realise that it is most important to be happy :)

And so, I have been rather 看得开, and I don't try to control things I cannot control, which interestingly has also led me to try to control everything controllable - take a peek at how I organise my music and pictures :p (less organised now but I'm trying!)

I also like to take things easy, take the time to smell the pretty flowers, gaze at clear blue skies and play with the lovely sheep (plural now).

Just thinking about what SY and XY said a long time ago* and I realise the stark difference between the two of them and mf: they seem to think life boring without work while I envy them! Psst, do you still think so? :)

*Can't remember when - I drafted this a long time ago!

Sito is another one - must work! Good la, at least one of us should be hardworking :p

Honestly, I could appreciate the need to work when work is exciting.. My job can be exciting and satisfying but tiring. In fact, lately, there isn't much excitement! And there isn't much time either! Perhaps cos of my part-time diploma too... Who am I kidding.. Yes, my part-time course is taking away a lot of leisure time!

I really want to have the time to do things I want to do and gaze at blue skies and sleeping cats. Some guy once said that only those who could not afford it would enjoy idling the most. I couldn't agree more!

But I shall be zen about it, just take things as they come. After all, I still want to live on dreamily..

mf is on medical leave today

Had a minor surgical procedure this morning. Was a bit nervous but Sito was with me :)

Nurse said that Sito would have to wait outside but she would bring him in when the procedure was over.

So I laid down on something that looked like a dentist chair, and read 8days from February - I haven't read that for years! Like, more than a decade! (Read a scanned article last month but that was work :p)

Then, I was given an injection on the back of my hand. The last thing I remember was shifting my butt to a more comfortable position with the nurse helping me.

Then I was in some forgettable dream.

Then I woke. Very suddenly. In a bed in another room.

Sito came to me and I realised that it was over. Oh.

My legs were wobbly at first but hunger proved more powerful - had to fast - and powered my journey to the coffee shop for an early lunch :) We slept most of the afternoon away :)

And now, I'm up! Cooked udon for dinner - the joys of a fridge full of frozen food! Never need to go downstairs when I don't need to :)

Thursday, 10 June 2010

Trends

Three data points make a trend, as exemplified by the following sms exchange with Kel. Or D.

Kel: D says: I discovered a trend! Kok siong likes girls whose name starts with 'M'. M******* to M*** to M****i! I think he likes/liked mf too!

mf: Oh, right... I discover a trend too - I've always been with guys whose name has a k. I think I liked Kok AND YOU too!! :)

And since we're on trends, let's talk maths..

mf emailed Kel one day:
i find myself procrastinating starting on a piece of work that requires number crunching....
which led me to think: why did i choose maths???!

Kel:
because you use symbols in Maths :)
if you like number crunching you'll choose accountancy :)

This is called 恍然大悟!

I hate it when people kind of expect me to jump into quant stuff - including splitting dinner bills! - just cos I majored in maths. So, I did do maths - but along the way, I forgot my multiplication tables and learnt Greek instead!

On a totally unrelated note, Sito bought a new laptop! And I inherit his macbook! Yeah!

Monday, 7 June 2010

First trip to a gynae

Went for a pre-pregnancy scan this pm. This may get a bit eek-ish for some...

One nurse at the counter was very cartoon in a nice way - that lightened me up a bit cos I was quite nervous! I mean, I was going to be examined there leh! Last that happened was with my lady GP whom I've seen for more than 10 years. And of cos Mabel at my spa for ahem, asthetic procedures :p

And so, I started doing my dreaded essay while waiting for my turn. Within that hour, I peed twice - once cos it was such a long wait! And another cos nurse said I should for a better scan.

Then, I was in.

Then, it was in!

Ok la, not so soon :p

Dr was an old chap with good bedside manners. "Milk," he said, "is for calves, not us." I've verified with him that soy milk is ok so that I can still have my muesli. Then it's "let's take a look at you!"

Nurse led me behind the curtain where I stripped before she draped a piece of cloth - pink! - over me. Then Dr came over, and the rest was history!

It wasn't very comfy but it wasn't terrible either. Just strange to have a probe in me. Very strange. Stranger than a PAP smear because it went further *.* Glad Dr kept talking - I felt better with the distraction! Later, he even gave me a book list on nutrition and recipes, and showed me his old photos when he was fat!

Still feeling a bit strange now. But I'm glad I went with Jo's suggestion to have a baseline scan of the insides before pregnancy. My dear girlfriends reading this, pls go see a gynae before trying to conceive!

Thursday, 3 June 2010

Just one

I was on the way home when Sito was on his way out for an event. We were chatting on the phone, interrupted only by broken signals along the way, when he realised that our trains would pass each other!

mf: Oh, we can spot each other!
Sito: It'll be too fast..

And of course he was right.

But as our trains passed each other somewhere between Commonwealth and Queenstown, I was sure that if we could just play back in slow motion what we'd seen, we would find each other in one of a thousand frames :)

Saturday, 22 May 2010

早晨七点半的遐想

早上在楼下有两只猫,他们就静静地在树下,一只卧着,一只坐着。

那一刹那间,我好想作猫。

Saturday, 8 May 2010

Will there be a day when hawker centres are no more?

We thought of going to Ghim Moh for breakfast today but we only woke when Mother called at 12.30 pm :p

We had bak chor mee and 烧腊饭 to relieve our basic needs, and fried carrot cake to fill our tummy :)

We were seated in front of a char kway teow stall run by an old couple, and we thought of the char kway teow we used to have as kid - his in Lakeview and mine in Braddell - and how the uncle would crack the eggs with one hand and throw the shells over this 凸-shaped thing in front of his wok!

Actually very few youngsters run hawker stalls these days.. We wondered if hawker centres would die off one day.. Or be run by foreign workers!

Hawker stalls can earn quite a bit - just look at the long queues in Amoy! Many stalls start early and end by 3 pm.. But it's tough work, no doubt.. And not glamorous! Guess these don't really attract young people..

The same goes for many other jobs as well, I guess. That's why we have so many foreigners, in F&B, shopping malls, spas.. The alternative is we have less food options, slower service, and *nightmare* no spas! Or, we pay a lot more for having Singaporeans do all these... Give me a foreigner, I don't mind!

But I notice there are varying qualities... Last week, when I was shopping for a swimming cap*, I was served by this girl who was obviously PRC going by her accent but she was using English confidently when talking about the various caps she showed me. I was happy with my purchase :)

* Yes! I went swimming with Sito last Sunday! Shall do again tomorrow if it doesn't rain..

Then just now, the PRC girl selling bubble tea with a local aunty was less impressive.. She was on the phone the whole time and was really loud! But at least she got our orders correct cos the aunty forgot *.* Actually, we were happy with our buys too :p

Anyway, I digress...

On Skype with Na now, a bit distracted so have been typing this for an hour! Even the rain has abated.. It was really scary just now, with the lightning and thunder.. Luckily, Sito is here with me so I don't feel like hiding in bed! Ya, I'm a wuss...

Sunday, 18 April 2010

Long Vacation quote :)

I really like this: できない時も、疲れる時も、長いお休みにしよう!無理なことをしなくて、がんばらなくてもいい。

Didn't expect to hear this in this drama :)


Saturday, 17 April 2010

Random dreams

We didn't sleep well last night. Sito had beer. I was woken by super bright lightning streaks at about 2 am, and had to get up to close the windows. Well, I guess that was better than having the rain drench our bay window laminate!

In the morning, I dream of us in some lonely room with a lonely corridor. Sito was doing work while I kept wanting to pee. The toilet was along the other side of the lonely corridor. And the seat was wobbly.. When I woke, I sped towards our toilet :p

This dream was interspersed with scenes from some Hong Kong vampire movie. Quite random.. And I don't like that actor at all! Bleah.

I think I had another dream earlier.. I dreamt that ICQ was alive! Na or another gf - not sure! - told me to go check it out and indeed, there were so many people online! I would have forgot about this dream if Kel (actually, it was D!) had not sent me a bo liao sms. I recalled that he sent me bo liao ICQ messages back in uni days!

I hereby declare Kelvin my gay bff! Except, of course, that he isn't gay!

Wednesday, 7 April 2010

If I were an apple

I was looking for a nursery rhyme as a tuning-in for my lesson tomorrow. And I found a cute song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bN3XpIAy2Wg

If I were an apple
If I were an apple
And I grew on a tree
And I grew on a tree
I think I would drop down
I think I would drop down
On a nice girl like me

(Ok, I changed the boy to girl :p)

Then Sito exercised his creativity...

If I were a fatso
If I were a fatso
And I eat McD
And I eat McD
I think I would drop dead
I think I would drop dead
From all the calories!

GAAAAR!!!

Oh well, I'd better not sing the wrong thing tomorrow for my presentation!

Aside..

On the way to class today, I saw this women with serious childbearing hips. And I thought, she must have had 10 kids!

Then miso stopped me..

miso: Don't jinx us.. Actually, just you.. Don't jinx yourself :p
mf: *scared* sorry for thinking bad thoughts!

Sunday, 14 March 2010

Home alone this week

I really shouldn't be blogging but I'm pretty sick of reading notes *.*

And it's been some Sunday today...

First, we woke at 6.30 am. When the alarm rang, I wasn't sure why it did..

Took the Skytrain from T3 to T1 but found it under renovation - no Macs :( Had BK at T2 instead. Always nice to have breakfast at the airport before a trip. Unfortunately, I was not part of the trip =/

This is the first time we're apart since our wedding. In fact, since we were legally wed! :p After Sito went in, I went home by train. With a little excursion along the way..

Oh, first, I had to drop my Pinky II on the ground as I exited the station.. !@#$%^&*()!!!

It was about 9.45 am so I thought I would take a trip to Ghim Moh to explore the market and maybe get some groceries there. So I followed the map in the MRT station and found the bustling market.

It was a really warm day! And I - specifically my feet - was feeling tired so I decided to look foot reflexology heh heh :p I walked around the shops next to the market and hawker centre - round and round and round, until I emerged one block away from where I started. Then I decided it was too heavy for me to carry groceries all the way home so I set off for the NTUC near our place...

But.. How to go home?! After a minute of walking, I realised that that wasn't the reverse route to the MRT.. Um, I was lost *.* Asked an auntie who gave me very good instructions :)

Then I thought I would check out the market near us so I did. But I made a rather hasty exit after (a) seeing an uncle chop a huge piece of meat, (b) having a stall owner shouting if I needed some vegetables, and (c) feeling like it was GSS and everyone wanted their hands on everything!

It was surreal *.*

Straight to NTUC next. Enough stopovers for the day! So I got back safe and sound, with a bag of groceries cos Yan was coming for lunch at 1.00 pm!! :)

Had some time before I needed to start cooking so I resisted PS3 and started my Sunday cleaning... Later when I was almost done, Yan told me she would be late.. Oh well, PS3 then :)

We got FF XIII and GT5 one after the other last week. I find Lightning so cool! And I'm considering her hairstyle.... But anyway, I was playing GT5 this afternoon and I was really bad at this particular track so I stopped and went to my notes, something I could actually conquer...!

It was almost three when we had lunch - curry udon and miso soup. Then we chatted while it rained heavily. Confidential, hoho :p But before we knew it, it was evening time!

After she left, I cooked dinner but left it on the table cos I wasn't hungry. Then I mopped and scrubbed and had a good sweat before calling it a day.

So here I am, pasta in my tummy, Sito on Skype, Tansformers on TV, and, oops, notes on the sofa behind me...

Saturday, 6 March 2010

感触

无意间找到一只《命中注定我爱你》+《我怀念的》MV,分别是我喜欢的偶像剧和歌曲,所以决定把两个entries合并。



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去年(!)刚看完《命中注定我爱你》时,有一种甜甜蜜蜜,依依不舍的心情。

喜欢剧情里那仅两分中只有音乐和字幕的一幕,说着陈欣怡从开始的痴心“便利贴女孩”到后来的(仍旧痴心)女强人,说着记存希从开始的-不知道什么!-到后来对她的爱与关怀,对别人也开始关心。两人,仿佛粘到了些对方的性情。

偶像剧有时也不一定完全脱离现实啊。有时候人生也是这样。人,会在不同的时候对同样的事物产生不同的感觉,也会不知道自己真正的想法,也会说反话。

而我呢? 随着剧情的扭转,心情也跟着起伏。后来还一直播放原声带,反复回味。

30岁的我还是喜欢偶像剧。

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我也喜欢唱歌。当然,好不好听是另一回事!

喜欢唱歌,是天生的吧,从小就爱哼哼唱唱。小时候,只唱当下流行曲。后来,偏爱某些情情爱爱的词,唱歌像演戏一样,感情丰富,对歌词仿佛感同身受!其实那时从没谈过恋爱,想起来还蛮不好意思的 :p

真正的感同身受也不是没有。

小学毕业,碰上小虎队解散,一首首《再见》,《放心去飞》都(和小雨一样 :p)来地正是时候。

初院毕业,碰上三个本地女歌手重唱新谣《溪水长流》。记得我把歌词写得美美的,贴在locker门上,贴了有整整一年吧?如今唱起来,还有当年的味道 :)

歌,要符合心情才会有人喜欢、有人欣赏吧⋯⋯除非是在追偶像? :p

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去年也不知道在忙些什么,只K了最多两次。今年难得已经K了两次 :)

And I love those MTVs!

梁静茹's MTVs almost always tell a story - I like the MTV for 没有如果 cos she was a very good SDO! :p

Ok, occupational hazards aside, I like JJ's 豆浆油条 and 被风吹过的夏天 cos he was so cute in them! I would be singing and gushing about him at the same time! But the girls didn't think he was cute leh *.*

And Jay Chou has many nice MTVs as well - not every one has a simple and clear story but it is always a joy to watch the MTV cos of the beautiful lyrics by 方文山 - I don't understand much of the lyrics just from listening :p

And when it's with CY, we must sing some exciting songs that see us jumping and screaming!! Except for that recent one, with both of us suffering from too much CNY goodies..

Looking forward to the next :)

Thursday, 4 March 2010

This feels like...

... a fag after a shag..! :p

Maybe it's a bad analogy but yes, that's roughly what I'm feeling now!

COS is finally over for me!! The next busy period should be from April onwards? Just hope the rest of March is kind... I'm hoping to catch up on some blogging, like our wedding! :)

Epilogue

miso: Do you smoke?
mf: No.
miso: Ok...