Was lying in the dark and totally engrossed in this sad song by Karen Mok when it stopped suddenly. Mother had come into the room and turned off the main switch without checking!
I could never enjoy my music in peace! The incident was a catalyst, the song another; bottled up emotions unlocked themselves and I started tearing as I put the track on repeat. I need breathing space. I don't want to snap.
作曲：蔡健雅｜作詞：李焯雄｜編曲：吳慶隆｜監製：李偲菘
那是你的手 曾經輕輕安撫我眉頭
但也是它甩開了我的手
洩了氣的汽球 兩顆心在萎縮的溫柔
你始終只低著頭 緊握你拳頭
透過這窗口 有人會猜我們是朋友
最普通的朋友 甚至不點頭
在記憶的上游 那是什麼揪著我心頭
是不是你那雙我熟悉的手
抱過你的手 還能放在誰背後
你想過沒有 我們為何會牽手
是什麼理由 然後沒有然後
甚至不再揮揮手
那是你的手 曾經把我捧在你胸口
但今天以後它不會在敲我門口
有一股腥紅的哀愁 緩緩地流出卡著我喉頭
你遠遠的抱著手肘 只站在外頭
抱過你的手 還能放在誰背後
你想過沒有 我們上一次牽手
是什麼時候 然後沒有然後
甚至不再揮揮手
抱過你的手 還能放在誰背後
是什麼時候 我們上一次牽手
但抱過你以後 有什麼已被沒收
你想過沒有 我們第一次牽手
是什麼藉口 然後沒有然後
甚至不再揮揮手 分手也不須理由
Tuesday, 18 July 2006
Monday, 17 July 2006
Food food food
Last night, Kel and Moh bought some snacks while I grabbed some apples and a sparkling new fruit knife from NTUC. Checking out my new knife later at MOS..
Kel: You don't like to sit on the bench, right? So we move in and let you sit on the chair.. ... Wouldn't you be so kind as to help me get one more pot of milk? *doe-eyed*
mf: *omg* ok, ok..
Then I stood up with the knife in my hands..
Kel: *gasp* It's ok if they refuse!!
I tasted the milk; it was actually half cream, which reminded me of this guy in my MSc class who drank single/double cream NEAT! Yeeks...
The upgrading works should reach the interior very soon, which means I'll be moving in with Grams very soon too. But pls don't forget me when I leave Tomato Town! We can still hang out eg at the nice cozy Macs near my Grams. Or the MOS in the town centre too - with milkshake! Ah, nice to have good friends staying nearby :)
Rewinding a bit to Sat.. Checked out this Sun with Moon Japanese restaurant with Sito and Hup. We were there at 6pm.. It was only the tea menu cos dinner was only served from 630pm.
mf: I'll like the mini tori kamameshi *from tea menu*
Waitress: No more; kitchen is preparing the dinner menu now..
Us: Let's order proper dinner then..
Waitress: You can't; we only start at 630pm.
Which begged the question: what do you serve during 6-630pm?!
Left the boys and headed for SF's house party, which was great fun despite me taking some time (and some red) to warm up to her bunch of some really funny friends and get used to their hilarious (bi-syllabic - only) language. Quite different from my usual, perhaps cos this was an, um, a more mature group? :p
Heard about the latest spectacular success of SF's "CCA" - these two got together within a week of knowing each other. Hey, you can spin your matchmaking skills into a lucrative business man! But for one particular client called mf, it's much harder work, heh!
Apparently, I drank a lot - only I had a red and I saw SF pour the last drop of the bottle into my glass.. But I wasn't even tipsy at the end of the night with additional JD at Bar None.. Bad sign - I've got too much fats =(
KLK's house parties had been comparatively sedate, just (a lot a lot of) food and games (including make-up!) and KLK talk and (more) food, no/minimal booze.. Plus, my eyes will surely pop if any one of you asks about my wildest orgasm, not cos of the question but cos it's KLK! Still, I'm keen for a KLK get-together around Xmas - waiting for someone to offer their kitchen now :)
Kel: You don't like to sit on the bench, right? So we move in and let you sit on the chair.. ... Wouldn't you be so kind as to help me get one more pot of milk? *doe-eyed*
mf: *omg* ok, ok..
Then I stood up with the knife in my hands..
Kel: *gasp* It's ok if they refuse!!
I tasted the milk; it was actually half cream, which reminded me of this guy in my MSc class who drank single/double cream NEAT! Yeeks...
The upgrading works should reach the interior very soon, which means I'll be moving in with Grams very soon too. But pls don't forget me when I leave Tomato Town! We can still hang out eg at the nice cozy Macs near my Grams. Or the MOS in the town centre too - with milkshake! Ah, nice to have good friends staying nearby :)
Rewinding a bit to Sat.. Checked out this Sun with Moon Japanese restaurant with Sito and Hup. We were there at 6pm.. It was only the tea menu cos dinner was only served from 630pm.
mf: I'll like the mini tori kamameshi *from tea menu*
Waitress: No more; kitchen is preparing the dinner menu now..
Us: Let's order proper dinner then..
Waitress: You can't; we only start at 630pm.
Which begged the question: what do you serve during 6-630pm?!
Left the boys and headed for SF's house party, which was great fun despite me taking some time (and some red) to warm up to her bunch of some really funny friends and get used to their hilarious (bi-syllabic - only) language. Quite different from my usual, perhaps cos this was an, um, a more mature group? :p
Heard about the latest spectacular success of SF's "CCA" - these two got together within a week of knowing each other. Hey, you can spin your matchmaking skills into a lucrative business man! But for one particular client called mf, it's much harder work, heh!
Apparently, I drank a lot - only I had a red and I saw SF pour the last drop of the bottle into my glass.. But I wasn't even tipsy at the end of the night with additional JD at Bar None.. Bad sign - I've got too much fats =(
KLK's house parties had been comparatively sedate, just (a lot a lot of) food and games (including make-up!) and KLK talk and (more) food, no/minimal booze.. Plus, my eyes will surely pop if any one of you asks about my wildest orgasm, not cos of the question but cos it's KLK! Still, I'm keen for a KLK get-together around Xmas - waiting for someone to offer their kitchen now :)
Saturday, 15 July 2006
Dancing tofu, wobbly tofu
New term: shabu shabu - the sound of thin slices of beef swishing in hot broth
Was at Waraku with Na yesterday..
Na: Put those difficult to cook stuff first..
mf: This is hard.. *poke poke* Radish? .. What is this?
Waitress: Radish..
Ok, put them in.. 5min later, our radish looked swollen.. I took one. Didn't feel like a radish.. Turned out to be a rice cake *.*
Word du jour: nira - Japanese for leek
I stupidly put udon in my mouth right after taking it out of the soup. Couldn't close my mouth. Soup dripped out.. Then, I spit out some food cos it was too hot.. Was it the same incident? Can't remember.. :p
The soup turned so thick that when I mixed it with some green tea (:p) the taste of the latter was totally eliminated by the soup. Think we OD on sodium..
Dessert included frozen strawberries and a ball of choco gelato. Cut gelato into wedges and stuck one into mouth - brain freeze *.* Na dumped one strawberry in her mouth and tried to show me the condensation.. My turn to eat strawberry whole..and I spit it out - too cold and I couldn't bite into the round thing!
So poor Na had to watch me spit food twice - yeeks :p Nvm, get used to it if we're going to share a place! Oh, we'll get the necessary pots etc to do our own shabu set :)
Amid all the funny incidents with food, we had a really nice chat. Ohisashiburi ne! :) Think the last few times we met, we were either at some nightspot or with the rest of KLK - difficult to talk.. We should chill like this more often.. Eh, you move to Tomato Town la! :p
Met Siok this am to pass her guide book on central Europe. Heard a shocking news that she has been posted to another division! So sudden =( Hey, have a good trip and see you in a month's time!
Was at Waraku with Na yesterday..
Na: Put those difficult to cook stuff first..
mf: This is hard.. *poke poke* Radish? .. What is this?
Waitress: Radish..
Ok, put them in.. 5min later, our radish looked swollen.. I took one. Didn't feel like a radish.. Turned out to be a rice cake *.*
Word du jour: nira - Japanese for leek
I stupidly put udon in my mouth right after taking it out of the soup. Couldn't close my mouth. Soup dripped out.. Then, I spit out some food cos it was too hot.. Was it the same incident? Can't remember.. :p
The soup turned so thick that when I mixed it with some green tea (:p) the taste of the latter was totally eliminated by the soup. Think we OD on sodium..
Dessert included frozen strawberries and a ball of choco gelato. Cut gelato into wedges and stuck one into mouth - brain freeze *.* Na dumped one strawberry in her mouth and tried to show me the condensation.. My turn to eat strawberry whole..and I spit it out - too cold and I couldn't bite into the round thing!
So poor Na had to watch me spit food twice - yeeks :p Nvm, get used to it if we're going to share a place! Oh, we'll get the necessary pots etc to do our own shabu set :)
Amid all the funny incidents with food, we had a really nice chat. Ohisashiburi ne! :) Think the last few times we met, we were either at some nightspot or with the rest of KLK - difficult to talk.. We should chill like this more often.. Eh, you move to Tomato Town la! :p
Met Siok this am to pass her guide book on central Europe. Heard a shocking news that she has been posted to another division! So sudden =( Hey, have a good trip and see you in a month's time!
Friday, 14 July 2006
Very happy leh!
Left office at 615pm yesterday - early early! :) - and went for a jog! :) Um, actually, a brisk walk.. I decided after just one min that I was too tired to do that much work against gravity..
But I took a longer route to make up for it. Mistake. It grew darker and I couldn't really recognise the park at night. Walked into a HDB estate when I missed a turn :p Nvm, turned back into the park after a few blocks..
Also controlled my breathing using what I learnt in pilates last time, keeping tummy in at all time. Plus I was consciously using my standing foot to propel every step forward, training for dancing..
Worked out a really good sweat in that hour. Think my butt and legs will be aching very much by end of today - I like :)
On the way back, I saw two very cute cats. Ok, maybe they were not very cute but it was the way they were crouching in the grass, without "talking" to each other, just enjoying each other's silent company. I told them I thought they were very cute :)
Was removing my socks when I heard a commotion in the kitchen. Apparently, YQ lost two fish. The tank was covered by mesh so they couldn't have jumped out. But they were too big for the third fish - only twice the size - to eat! Still, they couldn't find a trace of the fish.. Feeling rather disgusted cos I was trying to have my dinner during the futile search and discussion about possibly dead (eaten) fish.. Still, I was rather..amused..
It was a good day. Happy :) Go count the number of :) and be happy with me :)
But I took a longer route to make up for it. Mistake. It grew darker and I couldn't really recognise the park at night. Walked into a HDB estate when I missed a turn :p Nvm, turned back into the park after a few blocks..
Also controlled my breathing using what I learnt in pilates last time, keeping tummy in at all time. Plus I was consciously using my standing foot to propel every step forward, training for dancing..
Worked out a really good sweat in that hour. Think my butt and legs will be aching very much by end of today - I like :)
On the way back, I saw two very cute cats. Ok, maybe they were not very cute but it was the way they were crouching in the grass, without "talking" to each other, just enjoying each other's silent company. I told them I thought they were very cute :)
Was removing my socks when I heard a commotion in the kitchen. Apparently, YQ lost two fish. The tank was covered by mesh so they couldn't have jumped out. But they were too big for the third fish - only twice the size - to eat! Still, they couldn't find a trace of the fish.. Feeling rather disgusted cos I was trying to have my dinner during the futile search and discussion about possibly dead (eaten) fish.. Still, I was rather..amused..
It was a good day. Happy :) Go count the number of :) and be happy with me :)
Thursday, 13 July 2006
Needs vs. wants
For my farewell gift..
LH: What do you want but have not gotten? Will get for you if within budget..
mf: A white or bright yellow bath towel..? *since you can't get a man off a shelve! - no I didn't say that, just in my mind*
LH: Towel?! Are you sure?!
I realise I have a lot of needs eg I need my own room and related, I need a miraculous cure for my nose, I need to know the reason for my existence. But when it comes to wants, there's nothing I really really want.. Or maybe, there's nothing I really want that people can get for me.. Eg I want to eat chocolates and cashew nuts without getting fat?
LH: What do you want but have not gotten? Will get for you if within budget..
mf: A white or bright yellow bath towel..? *since you can't get a man off a shelve! - no I didn't say that, just in my mind*
LH: Towel?! Are you sure?!
I realise I have a lot of needs eg I need my own room and related, I need a miraculous cure for my nose, I need to know the reason for my existence. But when it comes to wants, there's nothing I really really want.. Or maybe, there's nothing I really want that people can get for me.. Eg I want to eat chocolates and cashew nuts without getting fat?
Monday, 10 July 2006
I had a very good sleep!
Yes, I slept right through WC finals cos I bunked over with Grams and Aunt! Smart right? :p But I'm not living in some cave; I know Italy won and Zidane kena for his head incident with Ma..eh, can't spell!
Kept waking up in the middle of the night in the past month cos they were always noisy watching WC. Last night I only woke once cos my hand touched something warm.. Was a little conscious that Aunt was beside me; it was some time since I last shared a bed, discounting Meh et al. Hope I didn't kick her or something! You see, Meh never complains if I kick her (seldom), and Eeyore never scolds me for using him as a pillow (sometimes)
Aunt is on pm shift today but both she and Grams woke early and fussed all over me. Aunt bought chicken pie last night - I warmed that up. Grams asked her usual "you want beelok?" Milo la, so doting, right? :) And when I left for office, I turned back and saw Aunt standing at the window smiling and waving goodbye. Ahhh.. It's going to be a nice week :)
(pink for the warm fuzzy feeling..)
Actually motivation for the stayover was that I wanted to stay for dinner and watch Pirates of the Caribbean on TV but that was 630-930pm so it would be quite late by the time I got back - like to rest early in Sundays. Might as well stay! Brought some beer to drink with Aunt over groundnuts too :p
Now going back to Sunday morning, my first driving lesson.. Drove to Ubi at a snail crawl, never going above 50kmh :p Despite my spider legs and hands when changing gear etc, and the stupid rain freaking me out, I thought I did not bad la :) Kel/Moh was telling me to mentally record the number of times I stalled: ~5, max..
Wore my new dance shoes for class. Have a total of five pairs, of which two are latin and four from Supadance. I could have had another Bali vacation with that money.. Anyway, Shifu approved my dress for the compeition. Think I'll wear it to dance next Sunday just to make sure I can move in it for all four dances.
Kept waking up in the middle of the night in the past month cos they were always noisy watching WC. Last night I only woke once cos my hand touched something warm.. Was a little conscious that Aunt was beside me; it was some time since I last shared a bed, discounting Meh et al. Hope I didn't kick her or something! You see, Meh never complains if I kick her (seldom), and Eeyore never scolds me for using him as a pillow (sometimes)
Aunt is on pm shift today but both she and Grams woke early and fussed all over me. Aunt bought chicken pie last night - I warmed that up. Grams asked her usual "you want beelok?" Milo la, so doting, right? :) And when I left for office, I turned back and saw Aunt standing at the window smiling and waving goodbye. Ahhh.. It's going to be a nice week :)
(pink for the warm fuzzy feeling..)
Actually motivation for the stayover was that I wanted to stay for dinner and watch Pirates of the Caribbean on TV but that was 630-930pm so it would be quite late by the time I got back - like to rest early in Sundays. Might as well stay! Brought some beer to drink with Aunt over groundnuts too :p
Now going back to Sunday morning, my first driving lesson.. Drove to Ubi at a snail crawl, never going above 50kmh :p Despite my spider legs and hands when changing gear etc, and the stupid rain freaking me out, I thought I did not bad la :) Kel/Moh was telling me to mentally record the number of times I stalled: ~5, max..
Wore my new dance shoes for class. Have a total of five pairs, of which two are latin and four from Supadance. I could have had another Bali vacation with that money.. Anyway, Shifu approved my dress for the compeition. Think I'll wear it to dance next Sunday just to make sure I can move in it for all four dances.
Saturday, 8 July 2006
Happy birthday to Na! =)
Feels like a Sunday today, maybe cos Fri was so long I thought I had lived two days. Oh no, am I feeling old? *.*
Glad I went to work in party gear cos I didn't manage to go off early. Met Sito past 9pm, exchanged his new fashion ring for a bracelet - is it still called bracelet for a guy? Anyway.. It had this bit for engraving, first five letters free. Conclusion was to engrave "fuck u", better than some pseudo name. I voted for all small letters; all caps wouldn't be as nice, and no need to start with a capital letter when swearing right?!
He couldn't decide.. mf was described as being very alpha that night. So, I grabbed the pen and paper and wrote the following:
Fuck u
FUCK U
fuck u
Physical actualisation is better than imaginery visualistion. Finally he admitted the small letters were nicer but capitalised the "u". All the while, salesgirl was expressionless, not bantering with us or even smiling. Must have faced a lot of shit that day. Or cursing us for making her do OT..
Time to split. He was going to grab something for Na while I joined SF for KTV. Turned out they changed venue from Party World to Kabuki, a real KTV. Her husband told me on the way in, "Don't be shocked/surprised* if you look into one of these doors and see a naked woman dancing on some guy!"
* The difference between shocked and surprised.. Could imply how others perceive me. Wish I remember which :p
My first thought then was, hey, this would be YX's and Kok's hangout after retirement!! Had a good laugh over this with YX later :p
It was not really a place for serious singing; one mic wasn't working, the songs were on analogue, song selection system was crap. Anyway, while the rest were chatting away, SF and I started singing - guess what? - I Will Survive! It was so fun to sing that! :p But the MTV was crap, the usual low quality productions for English songs since they don't usually produce KTV versions. Tried a JJ song next and found that I was apparently the only one who could read Chinese decently, omg.. Hey, thanks for asking me along! :)
Left very soon for Bar None. Found Na and her friend dressed up as cats! Except that they had clothes on, minimal set of cropped top and short skirt.. I'll never walk out like that!! Ok, my figure sucks.. Sito just told me I got fat (and see below) *.* Anyway, it was a more decent crowd - invited and existing - than her last birthday bash so obviously more fun! The band was quite cool too, made me want to be part of a band! Think I've asked before but no harm asking again: is there a band out there who needs a vocalist?? :p
They were later called on stage by the band for some birthday thing. The band got two guys from the floor to dance with them. Everyone was having fun as we all cheered them on, though I quite pitied the girls who had to dance with two not very pole-like poles! No, not quite cute too :p
When I finally got to the dance floor, I was there for all of one minute..
1) I felt too tall among the clubbers! Despite all my alpha-ness, I prefer to hide in the shadows. I know many girls would love to be taller but for me, I wish I were about the same height as 99% of my gfs, sighs..
2) Also, my tube top was a bit threatening.. I hadn't worn that for more than a year. I hope it was because the material had become loose rather than.. *.*
So we were mostly sitting around and moving a little to the music except for the birthday girl of course - it was her night! Then, refering to Moh..
Na: Hey, one leg each!
mf: *.*
Moh: *.*
I was rather amused by the whole episode :p In his words, he was just a passive pole, just stand still - lol! Always thought Na quite cool to be able to dance with anyone. Eh, it's a skill ok! For me, it's just weird to gyrate with my friends la.. I'm ok with physical contact but if I don't usually have that much physical contact with you over kopi, I couldn't suddenly go physical in a different setting.. My physical contact are really limited to: Kel used to pinch my cheeks (now I'm more alert and will block!), YX and Tok poke my tummy (I'm ticklish but hard to fend off such attacks), and though I do ballroom with Sito and salsa with Hup, it's still odd to pole-dance on them!!
Aiyoh, actually, I'm quite shy and conservative after all! Heh..
Oooh, fighter planes just flew by, rehearsing for upcoming National Day Parade!
Anyway, spoke too early when I happened to glance at my watch and saw that it was 1am. I said I still felt very energetic despite the time! But from about 2am, I started to get drowsy - I had all of one drink. The 10hours of work finally caught up.. YX, Moh and I left shortly after that.
With all the guys buying drinks for Na, I didn't. Hey, let's do dinner one day! Moh said he would come along too for your birthday treat!
On the way out, SF called me to rejoin her. She had this friend with her she thought I should meet. But I was so tired! New guy vs. bed, I chose the latter :p
Back at 3am, slept by 320am. They were rather noisy in the morning and I woke to find it was only 7+! Rather pissed.. Tried to go back to dreamland but the damned birds started chirping very VERY loudly! Complained to Meh, got some much needed tlc, happier :)
Even happier when I looked at the souvenirs Na got me from Hokkaido. Thanks, I like very much! Think I may be distributing cat-shaped chocolates very soon :) Though it was a bit strange; I didn't get her any birthday present but received souvenirs instead :p Nvm, birthday treat, birthday treat!
Was watching episode #3 of Long Vacation - the first two happened about a year ago! - when LH told me she was in office and said I didn't have to go back. Apparently our boss sms her at midnight last night. Hmmm, that was after I told him I would deal with work after my hangover..! But I went back anyway, brought some stuff over, cleared some little things..
Met Kel and Moh for lunch at J8. Told them my first driving lesson was tomorrow and tried to explain the principles of the clutch, which Dan taught me on Wed, but my articulation was horrible! Thank goodness I'm not a teacher..
Learnt a sad truth.. It must be more than a year ago when I happened to have tea with Kel and his (much younger) army friends. Kel blurted out today that they commented I HAD FAT THIGHS! Think I was wearing a denim skirt that day.. Sob sob.. Wish you had continued to hide it from me!!! =(
We sat at Ah Mei for a long while after that, slacking the pm away with tea. Moh was playing Bounce on the phone. Watched a bit cos I had never gone through the 3rd stage! Then Kel pointed out a poster of a huge egg and we turned geeky (again)..
mf: That's magnified 300 times.. No, maybe 200..
Moh: *measuring, estimating* Radius of some 18 eggs, close to 400 times!
Kel: And there are gaps in between eggs..
Then we realised it should be ~pi r squared cos it was an egg afterall.. Eh, complicated..
Kel (physics): I'll use a grid lor..
Moh (eh.. complicated!): I'll fold the big egg into quarters, easier to estimate then multiply by four!
mf (mf-ised maths ie not very rigorously applied!): *slack* I'll just do a rough estimate like we did earlier.. If YX (comp science) is around, he may automate this with some programme, maybe iteration or what..
Think I'm getting old, feeling very tired now.. Need to make up for sleep.. Will wake early to jog tomorrow! Must work off the bad jiggling bits!
Glad I went to work in party gear cos I didn't manage to go off early. Met Sito past 9pm, exchanged his new fashion ring for a bracelet - is it still called bracelet for a guy? Anyway.. It had this bit for engraving, first five letters free. Conclusion was to engrave "fuck u", better than some pseudo name. I voted for all small letters; all caps wouldn't be as nice, and no need to start with a capital letter when swearing right?!
He couldn't decide.. mf was described as being very alpha that night. So, I grabbed the pen and paper and wrote the following:
Fuck u
FUCK U
fuck u
Physical actualisation is better than imaginery visualistion. Finally he admitted the small letters were nicer but capitalised the "u". All the while, salesgirl was expressionless, not bantering with us or even smiling. Must have faced a lot of shit that day. Or cursing us for making her do OT..
Time to split. He was going to grab something for Na while I joined SF for KTV. Turned out they changed venue from Party World to Kabuki, a real KTV. Her husband told me on the way in, "Don't be shocked/surprised* if you look into one of these doors and see a naked woman dancing on some guy!"
* The difference between shocked and surprised.. Could imply how others perceive me. Wish I remember which :p
My first thought then was, hey, this would be YX's and Kok's hangout after retirement!! Had a good laugh over this with YX later :p
It was not really a place for serious singing; one mic wasn't working, the songs were on analogue, song selection system was crap. Anyway, while the rest were chatting away, SF and I started singing - guess what? - I Will Survive! It was so fun to sing that! :p But the MTV was crap, the usual low quality productions for English songs since they don't usually produce KTV versions. Tried a JJ song next and found that I was apparently the only one who could read Chinese decently, omg.. Hey, thanks for asking me along! :)
Left very soon for Bar None. Found Na and her friend dressed up as cats! Except that they had clothes on, minimal set of cropped top and short skirt.. I'll never walk out like that!! Ok, my figure sucks.. Sito just told me I got fat (and see below) *.* Anyway, it was a more decent crowd - invited and existing - than her last birthday bash so obviously more fun! The band was quite cool too, made me want to be part of a band! Think I've asked before but no harm asking again: is there a band out there who needs a vocalist?? :p
They were later called on stage by the band for some birthday thing. The band got two guys from the floor to dance with them. Everyone was having fun as we all cheered them on, though I quite pitied the girls who had to dance with two not very pole-like poles! No, not quite cute too :p
When I finally got to the dance floor, I was there for all of one minute..
1) I felt too tall among the clubbers! Despite all my alpha-ness, I prefer to hide in the shadows. I know many girls would love to be taller but for me, I wish I were about the same height as 99% of my gfs, sighs..
2) Also, my tube top was a bit threatening.. I hadn't worn that for more than a year. I hope it was because the material had become loose rather than.. *.*
So we were mostly sitting around and moving a little to the music except for the birthday girl of course - it was her night! Then, refering to Moh..
Na: Hey, one leg each!
mf: *.*
Moh: *.*
I was rather amused by the whole episode :p In his words, he was just a passive pole, just stand still - lol! Always thought Na quite cool to be able to dance with anyone. Eh, it's a skill ok! For me, it's just weird to gyrate with my friends la.. I'm ok with physical contact but if I don't usually have that much physical contact with you over kopi, I couldn't suddenly go physical in a different setting.. My physical contact are really limited to: Kel used to pinch my cheeks (now I'm more alert and will block!), YX and Tok poke my tummy (I'm ticklish but hard to fend off such attacks), and though I do ballroom with Sito and salsa with Hup, it's still odd to pole-dance on them!!
Aiyoh, actually, I'm quite shy and conservative after all! Heh..
Oooh, fighter planes just flew by, rehearsing for upcoming National Day Parade!
Anyway, spoke too early when I happened to glance at my watch and saw that it was 1am. I said I still felt very energetic despite the time! But from about 2am, I started to get drowsy - I had all of one drink. The 10hours of work finally caught up.. YX, Moh and I left shortly after that.
With all the guys buying drinks for Na, I didn't. Hey, let's do dinner one day! Moh said he would come along too for your birthday treat!
On the way out, SF called me to rejoin her. She had this friend with her she thought I should meet. But I was so tired! New guy vs. bed, I chose the latter :p
Back at 3am, slept by 320am. They were rather noisy in the morning and I woke to find it was only 7+! Rather pissed.. Tried to go back to dreamland but the damned birds started chirping very VERY loudly! Complained to Meh, got some much needed tlc, happier :)
Even happier when I looked at the souvenirs Na got me from Hokkaido. Thanks, I like very much! Think I may be distributing cat-shaped chocolates very soon :) Though it was a bit strange; I didn't get her any birthday present but received souvenirs instead :p Nvm, birthday treat, birthday treat!
Was watching episode #3 of Long Vacation - the first two happened about a year ago! - when LH told me she was in office and said I didn't have to go back. Apparently our boss sms her at midnight last night. Hmmm, that was after I told him I would deal with work after my hangover..! But I went back anyway, brought some stuff over, cleared some little things..
Met Kel and Moh for lunch at J8. Told them my first driving lesson was tomorrow and tried to explain the principles of the clutch, which Dan taught me on Wed, but my articulation was horrible! Thank goodness I'm not a teacher..
Learnt a sad truth.. It must be more than a year ago when I happened to have tea with Kel and his (much younger) army friends. Kel blurted out today that they commented I HAD FAT THIGHS! Think I was wearing a denim skirt that day.. Sob sob.. Wish you had continued to hide it from me!!! =(
We sat at Ah Mei for a long while after that, slacking the pm away with tea. Moh was playing Bounce on the phone. Watched a bit cos I had never gone through the 3rd stage! Then Kel pointed out a poster of a huge egg and we turned geeky (again)..
mf: That's magnified 300 times.. No, maybe 200..
Moh: *measuring, estimating* Radius of some 18 eggs, close to 400 times!
Kel: And there are gaps in between eggs..
Then we realised it should be ~pi r squared cos it was an egg afterall.. Eh, complicated..
Kel (physics): I'll use a grid lor..
Moh (eh.. complicated!): I'll fold the big egg into quarters, easier to estimate then multiply by four!
mf (mf-ised maths ie not very rigorously applied!): *slack* I'll just do a rough estimate like we did earlier.. If YX (comp science) is around, he may automate this with some programme, maybe iteration or what..
Think I'm getting old, feeling very tired now.. Need to make up for sleep.. Will wake early to jog tomorrow! Must work off the bad jiggling bits!
When a concrete slab means a lot..
Look at the centre one. The two gaps along the length with the column in between are for windows. So is the left width. The door is on the right side. Am already imagining how it would look like when completed :)
Thursday, 6 July 2006
Fruity fluff
Someone sent me a while ago but forgot to save. Received it again this am. Better share now while I remember!
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
mf: My favourite fruit! But they oxidise easily so must eat once cut. No, I don't like to preserve them in brine.
Now Men.... Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
mf: Grapes give me sore throat even in moderation. Seldom take wine but when I do, I prefer sweet reds.
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
mf: My favourite fruit! But they oxidise easily so must eat once cut. No, I don't like to preserve them in brine.
Now Men.... Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
mf: Grapes give me sore throat even in moderation. Seldom take wine but when I do, I prefer sweet reds.
Tuesday, 4 July 2006
Fighting over mf, sort of..
mf: Eh, I don't know the difference between inflation rate and consumer price index*.. I'm an economic idiot.
So TO went to ask her ex-colleague..and came to me selling the guy! SF was resident matchmaker so they were sort of quibbling over my, um, business..
Then it hit me: I'm officially - since 1 Jul - in a division of all but one married persons *.*
* The change in consumer price index will give an indication of inflation rate. Something like that..
So TO went to ask her ex-colleague..and came to me selling the guy! SF was resident matchmaker so they were sort of quibbling over my, um, business..
Then it hit me: I'm officially - since 1 Jul - in a division of all but one married persons *.*
* The change in consumer price index will give an indication of inflation rate. Something like that..
Monday, 3 July 2006
Burp!
We did it again, CY and I. Every time we go out, we lick our (many) plates clean.. But that's one thing I like about hanging out with her - besides being such great company, she eats a lot too so I don't feel too bad gorging myself silly! I'm often conscious of looking like a gigantess walking among many tiny and/or thin friends; I don't need to feel like one when I see them picking at their dinner.
So, what did we have? Full main course and sinful dessert at Bakerzin - Hup (and Sito and CW, who were all shopping for the second consecutive day) saw me at the cake counter, rang immediately, "No cake! No cake!" But.. :p Then we proceeded to the food festival outside Taka and had, among us, kong bah pau, deep-fried vege pancake, chicken sticks, and peanut butter pancake!
Side story.. There was an Indian guy checking out the vege pancake (deep-fried, very good! Wa..) stall. Earlier in the afternoon, Sito was talking about speaking to strangers and I saw him talk to his #4 of the day. I decided to chat up that guy, and it was a spectacular success! Encouraged, I've decided do so more often to hone my comms skills - useful to be able to talk to all kinds of people besides aunties with babies :p
So, what did we have? Full main course and sinful dessert at Bakerzin - Hup (and Sito and CW, who were all shopping for the second consecutive day) saw me at the cake counter, rang immediately, "No cake! No cake!" But.. :p Then we proceeded to the food festival outside Taka and had, among us, kong bah pau, deep-fried vege pancake, chicken sticks, and peanut butter pancake!
Side story.. There was an Indian guy checking out the vege pancake (deep-fried, very good! Wa..) stall. Earlier in the afternoon, Sito was talking about speaking to strangers and I saw him talk to his #4 of the day. I decided to chat up that guy, and it was a spectacular success! Encouraged, I've decided do so more often to hone my comms skills - useful to be able to talk to all kinds of people besides aunties with babies :p
Sunday, 2 July 2006
Superman!
He's my favourite superhero :) Grew up watching Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman, stamping my foot every time Clark couldn't tell Lois his identity, every time Lois felt caught between the two men who were in fact one and the same.. Oops, seems like I cared more for the romantic plot than the action? Heh..
Latest Superman is super yummy.. But he can't beat the cuteness of little Jason who turns out to be Superboy! He has the sweetest eyes ^.^
Anyway, thanks to all who wished me well - I've passed my basic theory!! Might be a marginal pass cos I had some 4-5 questions I wasn't sure of but well, it's a pass! Also got my provisional driving licence and contacted friend's father for driving instruction. It's a matter of starting now :)
Attended KH's wedding yesterday. Bumped into WL who turned out to be the bride's cousin, and Moh who was part of the sword party, plus saw a number of familiar faces, excluding my group of course. It was really the full works man, with cocktails, ROM and vows, photo montage, video of morning proceedings, speech etc.. Had a good time catching up with the people. Learnt about the reason for BH's accident that destroyed his car - he was filming a school video in which he was supposed to crash and die, but somehow he really crashed! Very happy evening except that my stomach wasn't too well, gastric pain lasted for hours until I slept.
Thought the wedding was really sweet, the part where the father gave his daughter away. I don't see the need for the full works but I would love to have a doting father to give me away. Unfortunately, I have no such privilege. Any of my uncles would probably be willing to do it, but kind of odd since all of them have daughters anyway. How about my friends? Shit, I would need to choose one! .. To be fair, I have a fantastic idea! Kel, YX, Sito and Hup can flank me on four sides, then Tok could give me away since he's my "papa" since so long ago! Yeah! Problem solved! :) Heh, quite funny if that really happens :p To make it even better, I shall skip the usual sickness and health wedding vows for:
mf: You can turn bald, you can become a grouchy ah peh and have your Tiger with one hairy leg on the chair, but I'm sticking with you!
The Mister: You can add 50 pounds, you can turn naggy like an auntie and keep your hanky under your bra strap, but I'll grow old with you!
Wa liao, what a picture :p
Latest Superman is super yummy.. But he can't beat the cuteness of little Jason who turns out to be Superboy! He has the sweetest eyes ^.^
Anyway, thanks to all who wished me well - I've passed my basic theory!! Might be a marginal pass cos I had some 4-5 questions I wasn't sure of but well, it's a pass! Also got my provisional driving licence and contacted friend's father for driving instruction. It's a matter of starting now :)
Attended KH's wedding yesterday. Bumped into WL who turned out to be the bride's cousin, and Moh who was part of the sword party, plus saw a number of familiar faces, excluding my group of course. It was really the full works man, with cocktails, ROM and vows, photo montage, video of morning proceedings, speech etc.. Had a good time catching up with the people. Learnt about the reason for BH's accident that destroyed his car - he was filming a school video in which he was supposed to crash and die, but somehow he really crashed! Very happy evening except that my stomach wasn't too well, gastric pain lasted for hours until I slept.
Thought the wedding was really sweet, the part where the father gave his daughter away. I don't see the need for the full works but I would love to have a doting father to give me away. Unfortunately, I have no such privilege. Any of my uncles would probably be willing to do it, but kind of odd since all of them have daughters anyway. How about my friends? Shit, I would need to choose one! .. To be fair, I have a fantastic idea! Kel, YX, Sito and Hup can flank me on four sides, then Tok could give me away since he's my "papa" since so long ago! Yeah! Problem solved! :) Heh, quite funny if that really happens :p To make it even better, I shall skip the usual sickness and health wedding vows for:
mf: You can turn bald, you can become a grouchy ah peh and have your Tiger with one hairy leg on the chair, but I'm sticking with you!
The Mister: You can add 50 pounds, you can turn naggy like an auntie and keep your hanky under your bra strap, but I'll grow old with you!
Wa liao, what a picture :p
Saturday, 1 July 2006
活着
脑海里突然冒出这两个字，让我想起这部电影。Google后发现它原来改编自余华的同名小说。电影或小说，其实我都没看过。有空有闲情，不妨看一看，能登上大荧幕，应该不错吧：
http://book.21zx.net/hz/
步入主题……
积极的人：希望、目标是生存的理由！
消极的人：责任才是生存的理由。
换个角度，这是积极vs. 消极，还是乐观与主动vs. 现实？这是否意味着，积极的人是乐观、主动的，而消极的人则比较现实？
千百年前，除了儒生学者，有多少人想过生存的理由？那时，做什么都是为了生存；婴儿呱呱落地后，活着是自然的。现在，生存已经不是难事；寻找生存的理由才是伤脑筋的问题。
我只是一个普通人，每天不是工作，就是休息或约朋友看戏喝茶聊天。日子一天一天过，没有长远的壮大理想，唯有每个礼拜计算着周末的到来。我没忘记自己期待已久的房间，但就算给我盼到等到了，日子还是一样地过，只不过多了一点舒适。
相比之下，我对于物质的要求，其实不难满足；难的是本姑娘对于…“心灵”(？)的需求。
不想了，承受不了脑细胞突然的活跃，头好大好大！
http://book.21zx.net/hz/
步入主题……
积极的人：希望、目标是生存的理由！
消极的人：责任才是生存的理由。
换个角度，这是积极vs. 消极，还是乐观与主动vs. 现实？这是否意味着，积极的人是乐观、主动的，而消极的人则比较现实？
千百年前，除了儒生学者，有多少人想过生存的理由？那时，做什么都是为了生存；婴儿呱呱落地后，活着是自然的。现在，生存已经不是难事；寻找生存的理由才是伤脑筋的问题。
我只是一个普通人，每天不是工作，就是休息或约朋友看戏喝茶聊天。日子一天一天过，没有长远的壮大理想，唯有每个礼拜计算着周末的到来。我没忘记自己期待已久的房间，但就算给我盼到等到了，日子还是一样地过，只不过多了一点舒适。
相比之下，我对于物质的要求，其实不难满足；难的是本姑娘对于…“心灵”(？)的需求。
不想了，承受不了脑细胞突然的活跃，头好大好大！
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