A walk with Grams

I was clearing out my emails last night when I saw a note I wrote to myself on 9 Mar 2010 in the office. Think that was after I visited Grams during lunch that day.

看到阿嬷好象很辛苦
大舅扯起她的右眼皮，叫她＂放心＂，告诉她有很多人来探望她， 明白的话就捏一下他的手。
我们看到阿嬷的手动了。
她一直在踢动右脚
阿嬷昨天下午被发现躺在床上叫不起，又好象呼吸困难。
入院后被证实右脑中风，三分之二的脑已经阻塞，就算度过这两天过渡期，终生都只能象现在这样。
我还记得我们还没来得及带阿嬷去Beng Thin
有遗憾，有难过
但最难过的还是看着阿嬷躺在那里
我和阿姨都哭了
我带了一朵橘色的花，附带一张卡片，上面写着＂阿嬷加油 :)＂
可是现在我只希望她不要辛苦，不要担心，不要害怕

Maybe because that was just before bedtime, I dreamt of Grams. She didn't look very well but she was walking with me to the bus stop because I was late for school! I seem to remember her speaking with me but I'm not sure. Could just be that I still remember her voice..

Such a familiar feeling in the dream even though Grams had never accompanied me to school before. But she did sit by me while I did my Further Maths stuff during JC :) And it was a "familiar" bus stop too - it appeared in at least one previous dream, a bus stop near Bukit Timah or MacRitchie Reservoir that had a few buses to NJ.

My cousins, are you still hanging out at Grams' place? Miss doing that, although it's never quite the same again..